by Trisha Lawrie
I thought I couldn't do it, I thought I wasn't strong
I saw myself as weak, but I know now I was wrong
After all, I always cried at the slightest little thing
A stubbed toe or a paper cut would cause my eyes to sting
I proceeded to convince myself that once contractions came
I'd surely call for drugs and only have myself to blame
But a wish grew that began to have a life all of its own
It started as a seed, but with my love, became full grown
For when I closed my eyes and I let myself be free
My heart began to open to each possibility
I took my wish and kept it safe, then nurtured it each day
And I began to trust me in a new, exciting way
Bit by bit the doubts about myself began to die
I faced my insecurities and started asking why
And because of this I came into a promising new world
Where the last bit of me changed into a woman from a girl
So when the pain came at a level that I hadn't ever planned on
My beliefs were my foundation, and the rock that I could stand on
I swayed my hips, rocked on my ball, I worked my baby down
And because he's mine, I reached down and I touched him as he crowned
I pushed my baby out from my own power and my might
I felt that I grew wings and that my body could take flight
When my baby came into my arms, I knew I'd really changed
I was a mother then, and I would never be the same
How could I ever be the same, when now I really knew
The awesome power of my thoughts, and all that I can do?
For now potential's limitless, I've met a brand new me
I'm a warrior, a goddess, a mother...I am free
I did not want to miss the pain, I wanted to go through it
And I did, because I grew my wish: I knew that I could do it
My niece had her first baby in December, and was determined to have the baby naturally. She labored for 20 hours in a small room of the hospital, with not even a picture on the wall or a chair for her husband. It amazes me what women can do when they believe they can.
